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THE REBELLION OF
EGO
by Ben Stewart |
All of
the resistance we encounter while venturing towards self
discovery is a rebellion of the ego. This rebellion is
quite ingenious actually. While we begin to practice
meditation, mindful observation, or any discipline in a
manner of self discovery, we are faced with an opposing
force. Everything we have ever applied value to begins
to rebel against the awakening of consciousness.
When we read the story of David and Goliath, we are in
fact reading of a battle between our unconditioned
consciousness based in reality and our conditioned
consciousness based in illusion. There is a fundamental
rule of nature that when we apply a value to anything in
our perceivable environment, we simultaneously create
its opposite.
If we choose to desire or become attached to a specific
person, situation, or sensation, then we immediately
create a fear of the lack or loss of those things. It is
precisely the fear we create and repress within our
subconscious framework that projects itself into the
world. There is only one true reality, and that is our
experience. If we are experiencing fear, depression,
anxiety, worthlessness, or hopelessness, it is because
we have chosen to believe that we need and deserve the
opposite.
We believe we need pride, therefore we create
depression. We believe we need acceptance from others,
there for we create worthlessness. We believe we need
hope, therefore we inevitably create hopelessness. So
when we begin to dissolve these false beliefs by
experiencing true, unconditioned reality, our egos begin
to feel threatened. Our egos were created by a perverted
form of intelligence, but it is intelligence just the
same. When our egos feel threatened, they begin to
rebel. In order to rebel, they employ every trick and
temptation that led us to create those ego in the first
place.
You will notice that everything imaginable begins to
cause pain and suffering. Unfortunately, even though it
is the ego that is suffering, we have the false belief
that we are the ego. Therefore, we experience the
suffering because we have intimately linked our
consciousness with falsity and lies. To dissolve the ego
is a form of soul surgery.
This suffering is necessary. There is no other way to
liberate yourself from suffering but to destroy the
mechanisms that enslave the consciousness. Yet even
though we inherently know this truth, the ego will seem
to externalize itself as people, circumstances, and
events in our lives tempting us to return to our old
habits and vices. We will begin to conjure up
justifications and alternative theories.
Our ego will act like our best friend. It will promise
us all of the pleasures in the world. It will tell us
how horrible, tragic, lonely and pointless a life of
freedom truly is. Just as a child will beg and plead for
something he or she wants, then put on a fake smile to
persuade you, then lash out to threaten you, then curse
you in the hopes of evoking guilt within you in order to
attain his or her desire, our ego is that very same
child.
Lucifer. The most heralded of all the angels. Entrusted
with the most controversial duty. The duty of tempting
the individual with rewards of ego. A truly liberated
and free individual understands the futility of the ego.
A sovereign mind comprehends the idiocy of worshipping
illusion. Lucifer stands at the threshold between
freedom and slavery. We are standing in limbo between
both, every time we encounter a Luciferic force.
Many people have the instinct to act only upon behaviors
that provide comfort and pleasure. Stepping out of the
comfort zone for anyone proves to be painful or
stressful. Because people's desire to be comfortable
supersedes their desire for self knowledge and well
being, they avoid any form of discomfort. This is the
impulse that drives us to repress undesired emotions,
thoughts, and past trauma.
I will state the unfortunate truth one more time. The
suffering that results from facing the darker portions
of ourselves is necessary. To overcome the fear of
riding a bike, a child must face and conquer the
mechanism that causes the fear. The only method for this
is to embrace and accept the fear as our own. You cannot
avoid the discomfort because it is precisely the
discomfort that you are meant to embrace.
R. D. Laing stated:
"There is a great deal of pain in life and perhaps the
only pain that can be avoided is the pain that comes
from trying to avoid pain."
This is exactly what we are seeing as the taproot of all
suffering on the planet. Our childish instinct to avoid
all pain and only experience pleasure is what causes
pain. As much as this might make sense intellectually,
it is truly difficult to accept with the heart. To bring
yourself to a complete comprehension that we must do the
exact opposite of everything we've been conditioned to
do requires a revolution of the consciousness.
I hope it is fully understood now that the structure of
polity, economy, and society cannot be transformed for
the better without every individual revolutionizing
themselves on a conscious level. If there are existing
rebellions, movements, causes, and organizations who
consider themselves to be revolutionaries without
placing the vast majority of the focus on personal
development, then the only action they're performing is
putting a pretty new mask over the same ugly face.
There is no better example of this than in politics. The
political system is set up as an exact replica of how
our ego works within us. The large majority of the
public cares very little for politics because they are
comfortable with others handling political decisions.
This represents our sleeping consciousness.
A smaller portion of the public actually cares about
politics, therefore they become involved and expend
large amounts of psychic energy on a game that cannot be
won. They will follow the rules, get informed, vote,
petition, rally and rebel, but all within the framework
that the political system allows them to. This is a
reflection of how we attempt to manipulate our life by
manipulating the ego. The ego cannot be manipulated. It
simply manipulates us. It is a brilliant mechanism. We
must comprehend that the ego understands us far more
than we understand it. The only way to conquer the ego
is to learn how we feed it, then starve it to death. The
same goes for political corruption.
An even smaller portion of the public believes that
politics is fixed and rigged and cannot be won. This is
true, however, this portion of the public attempts to
incite fear and anger among the public in order to
revolutionize the face of politics, leaving the core
untouched. The intent is to call for action in the
direction of any type of change. It is rarely noticed,
however, that the change only comes in the form of
increased confusion about what the original struggle
was. Such is the curse of the false revolutionaries.
This represents our desire to take control of our lives
by taking any alternative action. Within our psyche,
when we begin to realize the futility of playing the
game of the ego, we rebel. However, without
consciousness, we end up rebelling in yet another futile
game of the ego.
Without the consciousness involved in our struggle, we
lose sight of the fact that we are the chess player, and
not the chess pieces. The chess pieces represent all of
the portions of our identity. The white pieces are the
portions of our identity we accept and like to flaunt
around to the public, so we typically play the white
side. However, the black pieces are the darker portions
of our heart and mind. The corners of our subconscious
that no light reaches. All of it is us, yet only the
white pieces feed the ego, so we are in an eternal
battle with the opposing side. Anything that threatens
the integrity of our ego is our enemy.
Due to this reality, we have manufactured enemies in
every facet of our lives. This isn't out of boredom, but
a deep fear of the possibility that one day, we might
have to face the reflection of our true face. This seems
like a grim diagnosis, but if we remain conscious of the
fact that we are not being forced to hold onto these
pieces of the game. We have a choice to keep gripping
tightly the numerous aspect of our false identity, or to
let the pieces of your gloriously faulty empire crumble.
The most beautiful pain you will ever experience is the
agony of a lifetime of beliefs, dogmas, values, and
rituals being burnt to the ground in a while you do
nothing more than allow fire to do what it does best.
Destroy, renew, and regenerate.
All we must do is let go. This is painful, but we must
let go. The intellectuals may call it irrational and
unproductive, but we must let go. The highly emotional
may find it too uncomfortable to part with desire, but
we must let go. The conspiracy theorist might call this
disinformation in order to let the elite enslave us, but
even they must let go. Everyone has something within
them that they refuse to let go of, and that is usually
the one thing they must learn to let go of. The reason
why the sages and philosophers of antiquity say the
greatest lessons are hidden mysteries guarded by the
most gruesome warrior is because we have placed that
warrior there to protect the tender pieces of our soul
that are broken. We've chosen to protect these broken
pieces so violently that we've never even given them the
chance to heal. We must let go.
Enemies attack enemies. Ego rivals Ego. Fear battles
fear. These are all symptoms attacking symptoms. No true
change can ever come from them. The only true rebellion
comes from a surrender to the most frighteningly obvious
choice we've ever had. As Erich Fromm beautifully
stated:
"Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the
problem of human existence."
I hope we have the ears to hear this.
© Copyright Ben Stewart 2010, All rights reserved.
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Ben Stewart is a filmmaker and researcher of all
esoteric and exoteric topics ranging from quantum
physics, occultism, alternative history, depth
psychology, mythology, numerology and geomatria. Ben is
the film maker for internationally acclaimed film,
Kymatic. For more information on Ben and Talismanic
Idols. His other noteworthy film is: Esoteric Agenda.
Please visit his websites:
www.TalismanicIdols.org and
www.HangedManProject.com
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